Just thought it might help to talk to someone about it. It bugs me whenever I tell people and they say I'm just going to have to live with it. It's hell, and that's an understatement.

9/18/2009 1:29:44 AM

you, sir, need a shrink

9/18/2009 1:31:45 AM

you, sir, need a shrink

9/18/2009 1:32:52 AM

i have a shrink. i wish i could take the woman home with me. maybe i have what i need to get better. just wanted to see if someone else on here ever had any of these bizarre shittyass, terrifying symptoms.

9/18/2009 1:47:11 AM

you, sir, need a drink

9/18/2009 1:48:42 AM

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"they say I'm just going to have to live with it"

Technically, they're correct
Until you deal with it/work through it, unless you're going to off yourself, you will have to live with it.

9/18/2009 1:49:43 AM

they say that actually telling your story over and over again to whoever will listen makes the stress better. its because once you end up telling the story so much, it becomes more 'common' to you and kind of, boring, in a way. you end up getting bored telling the story so much and its supposed to help you actually deal with the issue.

9/18/2009 1:49:43 AM

You need a cold beer and a sympathetic ear, and I got the sympathetic ear. Best advice I have is first figure out the context of where your PTSD comes from, and then talk with others who share similar experiences. For example if your a combat vet, Id only share your experiences with other combat vets who can fully relate. I have found, as a cop, that sharing cop stories with people who arent cops is pretty much pointless. They cant relate and are just ignorant and usually judgmental in a bad way. Take comfort in those who share similar experiences, and vent your stress.

9/18/2009 5:07:55 AM

Double post, sorry

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9/18/2009 5:12:31 AM

Well if I were to see a horrorshow, I would probably have PTSD as well!

9/18/2009 6:28:31 AM

thanks. i feel u ambrosia. i've just told myself this is hard, and it's going to be hard until i'm through it. you get what you give.

9/18/2009 4:09:27 PM

does your shrink do EMDR therapy?

if not have her refer you to someone who does.


http://www.emdr.com/

9/18/2009 5:14:47 PM

cognitive-behavioral therapy (CBT) is the way to go. i would bet your psych is probably using this though.

^EMDR is actually a level 5 (no support) on the blue menu. doesn't mean it can't work for somebody, but i would be more willing to trust an evidence-based therapy.

[Edited on September 18, 2009 at 7:22 PM. Reason : emdr]

9/18/2009 7:18:37 PM

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"Well if I were to see a horrorshow, I would probably have PTSD as well! "

And [user]0ep11[/user] keeps it super serious in the lounge.

9/18/2009 8:07:35 PM

horrorshow, I can talk to you more about this PM-wise if you like. Were you in the military?

I'll tell you upfront that I don't have PTSD, but I have experience in helping Soldiers and other military who have been through it.

I still have dreams about the things that I've seen, though they have subsided over a period of time.

PM me, we'll talk if you like.

9/18/2009 11:26:42 PM

i have dissociative amnesia and a dissociative disorder.

i actually did emdr today. it helps with the panic i'm always getting from the dissociation. it's a scury feeling.

9/19/2009 5:19:05 PM

i did an hour and a half of emdr today, and couldn't do anymore. shit just exhausts the hell out of my brain. and i was getting memories from highschool, middleschool...all over the place in life i've already lived and i was just like i hope i'm doing this right, and my therapist said it looked like i was doing really well at processing. and she said she would have referred to me to someone else if she didn't think it was working. i always sleep a lot the next two days after therapy.

9/20/2009 1:27:32 AM

most of the memories came with the emotions i was feeling at the time, and man, were they shitty-feeling and depressing. i think i've been suicidal for a long time, i just never went on the thoughts.

9/20/2009 1:28:31 AM

i can't get over how weird it is to actually revisit this shit and have it feel like i'm actually in all these places again.

9/20/2009 1:30:21 AM

Keep talking.

9/20/2009 2:09:03 AM

Whats EMDR?

9/20/2009 3:08:17 PM

http://tinyurl.com/oj2ovj

9/20/2009 3:28:05 PM

well like today i was not wanting to, but i went back to my college days and i went back to the brickyard and i remember feeling so fucking shitty, so emotionally isolated from everybody else, but the kicker was i still went to that fucking library. i still did my homework and my studying. and i was so so so sad but i was numbing it all out, and i just like held my head in my hands today and let it all pass. i really didn't know why i didn't have any friends at school, but now it seems so obvious i just don't want to admit how aweful it was, how out of it i was and i still managed to bottle up everything and would still sound pleasant. i was like someone else was talking, not me.

9/20/2009 11:39:55 PM

i really thought that i was different from EVERYONE. that everyone else had something i didn't. and the isolation i felt...it was enough to slow my heart rate, i was always on the verge of crying it seems like, but i would be to scared to, and there was no one to talk to.

9/20/2009 11:42:18 PM

i was actually thinking about asking my doctor about ptsd

but i feel dumb doing it. i wasn't in the military/raped/etc.

but i do experience a lot of the symptoms. none of the dissociative ones though - that actually sounds like a relief (no offense) compared to what i seem to have - which is the opposite - i remember everything, can't stop thinking about it, can't sleep, have nightmares, etc. and it has almost been 6 months since the traumatic event(s) and i don't feel better sooooo i feel like something is wrong with me cause everyone else seems to deal a lot better than me.

9/21/2009 12:31:27 AM

I am proud of you that you went to a shrink. That is one of the biggest steps. I guess it takes time, it has been 8-9 years and I am finally getting back to feeling like a normal functioning person. At the time I didn't talk for 3weeks, cried constantly, didn't sleep, or eat. I lost so much weight that year that my knees were bigger than my thighs.

I hope that you are surrounding yourself with supportive people and friends. Also that your family is supportive. The fact that I couldn't talk about it, made it really difficult. I really think that talking about it makes it better. I find that talking about it with people that don't know your, like people here is the easiest, because people who love you get so upset. The more you tell why you have it, and your story the more common and a reality it becomes, that isn't so bad- and you realize that it's over and you can move on.

9/21/2009 5:40:42 AM

i got into AA and my next door neighbor's my sponsor. i'm goin' with him to do his chemo tomorrow. i was thinking this might get me out of myself a lil' bit.

^^anything can be traumatic. things kind of piled up for me ever since the initial trauma. i've been in car accidents, even being out on the street for a period has me shocked. mutiple traumas, but the emdr has me dealing with it so much better i think.

my last therapist, i'm now convinced, wasn't very good at helping me deal with things. she was kind of naieve (sp?) about, well, a part of me thought she was a ditz, and better at being a grandmother. my first therapist was great, i just resented her cause she threatened to call the police because i kept coming in all fucked up. i hated her for that. but her advice has stuck with me through my whole ordeal. the one i have now is pretty down to business, so i'm just telling myself to stick with it.

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9/21/2009 7:00:11 AM