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2/28/2008 9:51:58 AM

Quote :

"Too many guys think I'm a concept, or I complete them, or I'm gonna make them alive. But I'm just a fucked-up girl who's lookin' for my own peace of mind; don't assign me yours."

2/29/2008 1:01:58 AM

i thought i was going to be in bed by 11pm today

2/29/2008 1:03:44 AM

i should go to bed before i say shit i don't really mean...

2/29/2008 1:06:28 AM

hey will you say a prayer for me?

2/29/2008 1:07:37 AM

i just prayed for you

2/29/2008 1:09:51 AM

you got it, man.

2/29/2008 1:09:53 AM

i just want to fuck.

2/29/2008 1:10:46 AM

thanks ^^ and ^^^...i'm gonna go outside for a sec and think about what i need to pray for and then i'll pretend yall prayed for that too

[Edited on February 29, 2008 at 1:11 AM. Reason : .]

2/29/2008 1:11:04 AM

direction. i prayed you would find it, and pull yourself out of adolescence once and for all.

2/29/2008 1:11:50 AM

the thing i thought of was making better decisions...but that kinda goes with what you said also

2/29/2008 1:21:41 AM

i'm glad livingproof is talking to me in a thread...i'm bored and just feel like posting but theres nothing to post to

2/29/2008 6:35:15 PM

just learned what a pod cast is....i can watch tv for free without paying cable

3/1/2008 1:01:30 AM

im wanting to get 4 more posts to get in the palindrome thread

3/1/2008 11:43:58 PM

I believe guys are just as batshit crazy as WOOmen.

Holy fuck

[Edited on March 2, 2008 at 12:46 PM. Reason : AHA DAMMIT]

3/2/2008 12:42:37 PM

i believe that statement is retarded

3/2/2008 12:44:32 PM

someone else's boyfriend dying scared the shit out of me and i am now absolutely positively sure that breaking up with adam was the best thing for me.

3/2/2008 12:44:56 PM

why?? did adam die???

3/2/2008 12:46:57 PM

No.

3/2/2008 1:15:45 PM

Everytime someone goes fucking psycho on me all the times someone has pissed me off but I wasn't able to do anything bubble up and make it harder to hold back.

I wonder when I will be like "Fuck this place" and just explode.

I wish I could be mean and do it but I won't, I'll just have a stroke instead....

3/2/2008 7:07:06 PM

I'm too optimistic and hopeful when things could go in my favor. I set myself up for failure in that respect

3/2/2008 9:55:04 PM

I feel like a little kid even more often than I act like one

3/2/2008 9:57:11 PM

so i just found out who sings that "low low low low low low" etc song

3/2/2008 10:07:40 PM

Someone is very good at manipulating me. Maybe not intentionally

3/2/2008 10:18:04 PM

well THAT was unexpected... and pretty awesome...

3/2/2008 11:48:09 PM

I played really well at the soccer scrimmage today, and scored our team's only goal..but my team is probably going to make me play defender at the first real game, because I am big and clumsy

fuck defending

3/3/2008 12:14:29 AM

I scheduled a date for this weekend around a trip to a trashy strip club in Fayetteville that I have planned for Saturday

3/3/2008 1:38:26 PM

look like im the dick who forgot to pay off his coffee club amount last month

3/3/2008 1:45:10 PM

that dog made me hurt my hand again

3/3/2008 8:40:41 PM

Quote :

"Too many guys think I'm a concept, or I complete them, or I'm gonna make them alive. But I'm just a fucked-up girl who's lookin' for my own peace of mind; don't assign me yours."

and i'm not a fucking habit.

3/3/2008 11:06:04 PM

what does that mean?

3/3/2008 11:31:37 PM

^^
that is pretty fucking insightful

3/3/2008 11:46:34 PM

when I'm laying in bed watching TV I like to twist my ball hair and slightly pull on it. I like the feeling

3/3/2008 11:48:19 PM

i'm really, really tired of life.

JGatsby cheered me up the other day.

3/4/2008 12:47:36 AM

Quote :

"ETERNAL SUNSHINE"

3/4/2008 12:48:55 AM

^^^^
one time I braided my pubes into little dredlocks, out of boredom

3/4/2008 12:49:54 AM

its a lot more fun looking through facebook pics when the chick tells you to

3/4/2008 1:44:01 AM

i got some cool PM's after posting a small story from my life...I didn't expect that.

3/4/2008 1:56:01 AM

that was a cool story

3/4/2008 1:56:34 AM

a part of that story that isn't in there is this: it was january, and snowing. worse thing about it is my dad turned me away, after i had walked 6 miles to his house. he still apologizes, but there's a certain - respect i guess - in the way he treats me now that let's me know that his time as 'Dad' ended that day.

a confession i feel like making about that fact is: Since that fateful day in the snow, I haven't taken a single bit of my father's advice. later in life, my decision to make my own choices regardless of how persistent my dad, or anyone else was, inadvertently saved my mother's life in a very real and scary way.

3/4/2008 2:00:18 AM

Sometimes I think I'm overly confident in my self.

3/4/2008 2:01:44 AM

^^i dont get it....you say something about respect but then you say his role as "dad" ended that day...why did he turn you away btw if you dont mind me asking...and how did it save your mom if you dont mind me asking

[Edited on March 4, 2008 at 2:02 AM. Reason : ^who doesnt]

3/4/2008 2:02:32 AM

my father turned me away thinking it would make me learn a hard life lesson...I did. I decided to go against his advice when my mom lost her marbles due to a chemical imbalance over christmas...
geez this story could get long winded, um...ok. so my mom started declining last year some time, but we all just kinda let it go, cause it was gradual. anyways, she started having 'relations' with our Lord Almighty, and talking back and forth with Him. christmas day my brother, gf, and I went to go see her, and she was acting very strange...like she had just gotten laid(my mom hasn't been on a date since the divorce 15 years ago, with no inclination to do so - she plays piano for her church, and teaches horseback riding lessons for God's sake) so me and my brother are on the porch out of earshot going "WTF?" anyways, we have dinner, open presents, play scrabble, and go home feeling weirded out about the whole evening. the next day she calls me screaming and crying that i had to answer a question about an accident i was in, 6 months ago in my camry (i wasn't hurt at all) and basically, she was on a razor's edge of sanity at this point...the answer to her question confirmed to her that she was infact, and had been for some time, delusional. taking the lord away from her tore her soul apart, being she is so deeply religious, and discovering she was in the hands of satan was even worse. I made her promise(against my dad's advice) that she would not take her own life, and that she would see this through, no matter how much it hurt, no matter how hard it was. Keep in mind that until that phone call, Mom was Mom. now Mom was not Mom, and it was like gravity wasn't what i thought it was. after about 10 minutes of screaming and cursing at me(she NEVER curses) and me coming right back at her(I ALWAYS curse, but never to her) she finally promises me that she will not self-terminate. skip past 3 days of almost constant phone contact, and her only real point of contact and support(you really learn who your friends are when you go crazy) we finally got her to get in the ambulance(3rd time out there) and accept treatment. she calls my dad directly and tells him the only reason she was still on this earth was because i got her to promise to see it through, and not kill herself. she got some anti-delusion pills of some sort, and now she is more productive, healthy, and just more ...MOM...than before. I hadn't realized how far she had slipped, until after the fact...I am so ashamed that I didn't see the warning signs, but through all of that, I never hesitated when a decision needed to be made concerning her well-being. while the rest of the family was calling each other and trying to figure out the next step, or yelling at me to go down there since i was closest, etc. I was talking to her on the phone for 4-7 hours at a stretch, fighting her demons with her, making her prove what she believed to be right, by finding it in scripture, whatever i could do to keep her out of her delusions, and here with me in the real world. I love my mother and father very much, and they may have taught me some very important lessons without even realizing it.

3/4/2008 2:26:48 AM

damn...i dont really even know what to say

3/4/2008 2:31:47 AM

[Edited on March 5, 2008 at 12:57 AM. Reason : .]

3/5/2008 12:46:58 AM

I would've lied
could've cried
should've tried harder
done anything to make you stay
I wonder what you'd do if you looked out your window
and saw me runnin down the runway just like I was crazy
that fence is too high
so am I

3/5/2008 1:48:46 AM

i haven't specified a DOCTYPE in about 7 years

3/5/2008 9:11:43 AM

I hardly post in my most successful thread.

3/5/2008 9:40:11 AM

i have nothing to confess


you people know everything about me anyway

3/5/2008 10:20:59 AM

I find myself becoming more and more antisocial. People who try to engage me on a personal level at the gym, in the hallways of the office building, and any other public area hit a wall of ice. If I lost my job right now I would have no network to help me find more work.

3/5/2008 2:18:53 PM