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5/26/2011 9:25:58 PM

I'm reading up on ways to kick start labor. I don't know that I can wait 3 weeks. This back pain is awful.

5/26/2011 9:36:11 PM

I want NEED to be kissed and kissed hard.



It's been a very long time since someone kissed me passionately, more than 7 months.

5/27/2011 2:54:23 PM

5/27/2011 3:00:58 PM

I don't think you'll have any problems finding volunteers.

5/27/2011 3:02:02 PM

my face is still wicked swollen but i need to use my hands - so i totally wrapped an ice pack onto my face using an ace bandage.

lemme tell ya, it looks pretty hot

6/1/2011 12:27:46 PM

omg did you get beat up last night?

6/1/2011 12:35:35 PM

yes, my dentist beat the ever living shit out of my jaw when he removed my wisdom tooth

6/1/2011 12:37:25 PM

I can't remember a time I've gotten a buzz or more without having some very sad memories rush though my head as I'm sobering up. It seems like every time there is something that will remind me of her and then I get in a half buzzed sad state. Thats one reason I don't drink to get drunk, that'd make that crash even worse. But part of why I drink, so I remember.

6/2/2011 11:29:34 PM

i like that i just got in a fight look on girls as long as its not me there fighting, luna

6/2/2011 11:48:33 PM

i'm eating peanut butter out of the jar with a spoon for lunch

6/3/2011 2:07:29 PM

Whenever I see alternative-type people (for lack of a better word. People with crazy hair and facial piercings and full tattoos or whatever) with tiny babies I always feel bad for the kids.

6/3/2011 2:18:36 PM

I look down on people who love pop music, I find it inferior and appealing to the basest primal instincts. I like good compositions and I feel like its rooted in history. The upper class listened to deep beautiful composed works from orchestras while the lower class listened to stupid words slew over three chords banged out on a piano at the local brothel. I'll take thoughtful, beautiful composed music over a verse chorus verse chorus bullshit hook any day.

6/4/2011 11:26:42 PM

I have an ice eating problem.

6/5/2011 8:22:14 PM

I, too, have an ice eating problem and I'm eating ice now.

6/5/2011 8:43:28 PM

I never learned how to read.

6/7/2011 11:07:28 AM

One of my friends as an undergrad who used to live in another dorm stayed over in my room one night. He asked for boxers, so I gave him a clean pair. He woke up in the morning and left before I got up. I sniffed the boxers.

6/8/2011 3:15:46 PM

The Indian dish "rogan josh" was named after my TWW screenname.

6/10/2011 7:19:56 PM

It broke my heart leaving my pup again today, I can't imagine how parents feel when they have to leave their child behind

6/12/2011 2:06:23 AM

I shit on a pregnant bitch.

6/12/2011 2:15:50 AM

I have a bed sore (pressure ulcer) on one of my ears from sleeping on the same side night after night. I had no idea you could get a bed sore on your ear much less just from regular sleeping. But I've been wearing a corn pad on my ear at night to take the pressure off of it in hopes that it will heal on its own. It looks and makes me feel soooo stupid.

6/12/2011 10:13:16 AM

I binged on wings last night because I hadn't eaten since 1:30 due to work aaaaaaaaaaaand I am so fucking bloated nothing fits. I stepped on the scale and it said I was up 6lbs!

hahaha I knew not to get on it this morning but after feeling like shit and not finding anything to wear I decided to see how bad it was. sigh

Chugging water now.

6/12/2011 10:15:18 AM

when i was in the utility room getting something to eat out of the extra freezer, like 5 lightening bugs flew in and i tried to get them out but i only got one out and didn't wanna get trapped in the rain (it seems like it is about to downpour) so the other ones got locked in i feel really guilty.

at least now the spiders in there will have something to eat

6/12/2011 7:20:21 PM

i feel like a bitch for saying this - but i'm going to say it anyways.

i am having a hard time helping my friend deal with his mom going through chemo. everytime she has treatment, he lets me know and i ask how she's doing how he's doing offer to help etc. within about 5 minutes he is non-stop bitching and complaining about how hard his mother is to deal with, how he's not a caretaker type person and it's the same exact conversation every damned time.

i really want to tell him to man up and just deal with it - but i know he's scared shitless of losing his mom :-/

6/12/2011 7:32:18 PM

I know what you mean, you kinda feel like an asshole but at some point its just "fucking shit, man the fuck up, this isn't going anywhere"

6/12/2011 7:34:30 PM

i understand your position too

and having gone through that w/ my mom if someone was complaining to me i really would be pissed and just be like, fucking deal with it. so i don't think you really sound like an asshole at all. or maybe i'm just a bigger asshole

i mean i get that it sucks. that is obvious. and no one wants to be in that position. but you gotta do what you gotta do. i pretty much only complained to my boyfriend (well and it wasn't complaining it was more like sobbing and saying "my mom is going to die" over and over again). i felt awkward discussing w/ friends and i didn't want to alienate anyone or be that weird girl with the sick mom (and dad). *shrug* different strokes. maybe he should try keeping a journal or something? or talking to a counselor. those people are supposed to listen to your problems and then he won't alienate friends. and they have social workers and stuff like that at hospitals fo free for patients and families of patients.

6/12/2011 7:43:11 PM

see i told him that when and if he ever needed to talk i would be there for him. i think i'm one of his only female friends so it's not a big deal.

it started being about him being scared and all that - which is totally cool.

we've now had the "my mom is so fucking annoying" conversaiton like 5 times.

it's like dude, do you have any idea how many fucking chemicals they're pumping into her??? do you have any idea how scared she probably is?!?!

UGH

^

6/12/2011 7:45:26 PM

^

damn yea that is a rough position to be in (for you as a friend). and yea, it sounds like he should be a little more accommodating/sympathetic. sigh. life.

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6/12/2011 7:48:10 PM

[Edited on June 12, 2011 at 7:49 PM. Reason : wrong thread]

6/12/2011 7:48:54 PM

There are caretaker support groups -- many that are even specific to cancer.

For several months now, I've been taking care of my 92 year old grandmother through end stage kidney disease. It *is* extremely difficult and it *is* important that you talk about your own feelings, BUT you shouldn't let that impact how you treat the patient. The best thing that he can do is find a support group or network with other caregivers because not only will they understand his frustrations, they can also give him advice on how to handle his mother and his frustration with her.

Basically, man the fuck up and do what he's got to do to look after himself.

[Edited on June 12, 2011 at 7:51 PM. Reason : .]

6/12/2011 7:50:40 PM

^ yep! and a lot of them are at hospitals (if she is in a hospital, it is convenient). i went to some w/ my mom. and dad. being a caretaker is rough. i empathize, i do. and everyone expresses emotion differently...so i guess frustration and anger are his deal right now.

i never went through that while my parents were sick, only after. then i was like, why did you die i'm so pissed at you for leaving me. and i was mad at my dad for still being alive. i mean that is such a horrible thing to say but i was all, why are you alive and my mom had to die.

it sucks but he is def not manning up. bottom line, here hah

sidenote: expressing your emotions/"talking" about your feelings can happen in different ways too. i know my main way was blogging and i did a pretty extensive carepage. that was where i did most of my venting/discussing of how i felt. so it wasn't really "talking" per se. but a way of venting. he needs that it sounds like. and he can't just vent all to you. i mean obviously you will be there for him but that isn't really healthy for either person for him to just dump emotions on you constantly. it is probably exasperating for you!

[Edited on June 12, 2011 at 8:00 PM. Reason : .]

6/12/2011 7:58:56 PM

yea i might recommend to him seeking out a group....

he's only with her for the 4 days after her chemo treatments right now, which are every two weeks i think.

6/12/2011 8:02:01 PM

Chemo SUCKS. My son went through 3 days of chemo before his thymus transplant and it made him so ill.

6/12/2011 8:05:49 PM

I know it's a stupid FB trend, but everyone putting up pictures of them and their dads is getting to me.

I know we're working things out now and all that, but it does make me sad that the only pictures I would ever put up are ones of him holding me as a baby, and only because I was a cute baby.

Plus, I would feel guilty because my stepdad is really my "father figure."

Anyway, /sad confession

6/13/2011 5:13:32 PM

I will be going back to my hometown on Friday night for a welcome home party, and then leaving on Saturday to come back here and chill on the roof @ Lynnwood. I feel a little jackass-ish about this as I should stay in the hometown all weekend for Father's Day, but I'm not even gonna tell the parents I'm there

6/14/2011 8:44:38 AM

^ I also frequent Lynnwood...Im going to yell your username on sat and I expect you to stand up.

6/14/2011 9:23:23 AM

You might have to try that in all 3 zones now. Their new place is badass

6/14/2011 9:34:35 AM

i'm starting to get the baby itch

i really hope it goes away

6/14/2011 9:36:05 AM

go hang out with a 2 year old for a day - it will go away.

6/14/2011 9:48:00 AM

haha my nieces and nephews are 9, 7, 5, 3 and 1 (who I hang out with all the time) and yet I still have the itch

6/14/2011 9:52:12 AM

they're the most fun when you can give them candy and caffeine, get them riled up, and then hand them back to their parents. Considering that you have so many nieces / nephews, you're going to get a lot of payback from your siblings if you've been doing this.

6/14/2011 10:01:47 AM

I have tried to always buy my niece toys that make noise or have entirely too many parts for my brother to step on barefoot. He knows this, and I realize perhaps I didn't think that plan too far ahead.

6/14/2011 10:06:57 AM

^^ yes but i feel like the amount of babysitting that i do should totally outweigh the crap that i get their kids to do.

i mean shit, i had their kids (all three of them!) for a week when all three of them got stomach flu. not all at once - but each on a different night. made me realize that i never want to be a single mom.

6/14/2011 10:08:37 AM

I need to not watch these sappy movies when I'm feeling lonely



*sigh*

6/17/2011 12:29:45 AM

I want to fap tonight

6/17/2011 12:33:25 AM

I had a dream last night that I was at Joie and Cody's wedding, along with my dad and sister. It was outside in the summer, but they had a snow machine, so it was snowing. Also, the preacher at the church where I work was there for some reason and he didn't believe me when I said it was snowing until my dad hit him in the face with a snowball. Then these llamas came out and chased everyone and the baby llama attacked me and I punched him in the face. Then these people on stilts (one of them being a guy I graduated high school with ) came out of a cave and walked around and people kept saying, "Oh! Look at the giraffes! So cool!" I was all But anyways, after the wedding all the boys ran off to get drunk and the girls had a hot/spicy eating contest, and I walked over and was like, "I wanna try!" And I ate everything they had and none of it was hot at all and the girls were all freaked out. Then Joie said (in this annoyingly squeaky renee zellweger voice) "Elise are you still sober? Cuz this is my wedding and I want to throw (meaning vomit??). If I don't throw on sunday I'm gonna be mad. Let's go to the bar!" Then I woke up.

6/18/2011 12:04:10 PM

^ THAT FOOD WAS HOT WOMAN

6/18/2011 12:06:02 PM

I woke up laughing my ass off.

6/18/2011 12:06:41 PM

it is very interesting...

the giraffes threw me off haha

6/18/2011 12:14:14 PM

awesome

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6/18/2011 12:17:44 PM