i am sleepy

11/12/2010 10:02:56 PM

I feel like I'm numb and stuck at the same time. It was three weeks ago tonight (well, 6ish hours ago) and I haven't felt the same since. I just want to be happy again.

11/16/2010 3:23:29 AM

I don't think I'm ever going to make any friends here. I hate how introverted I get.

11/18/2010 12:18:06 PM

Quote :

"The U.S. Census states that on the average, widowers will remarry within 3 years of the death of their wives"

I really hope that is accurate.

11/21/2010 2:18:10 AM

^^ yeah, I feel the same way. Luckily, I have my best friend sitting beside me right now and that is all I need.

11/21/2010 2:37:59 AM

peeeetaaahhh

11/21/2010 8:47:24 AM

i am kind of a control freak

and the thanksgiving turkey (which i'm probably not going to be 100% in control of...i mean the cooking part i'll be there but the purchasing, thawing, brining, i won't be a part of) is probably going to give me major anxiety

why must i be a control freak? i'm sure everyone else in america loves to have their thanksgiving feast prepared for them while they sit back and relax. but i like to do the preparing because....i am a super duper control freak.

plus, the bf's mom made her first turkey this week and said it turned out great but i didn't try it so i don't know. i'm just worried. worried worried worried. because maybe some people don't care if their turkey is dry and bland? but i do!!!!! i dooooo

[Edited on November 21, 2010 at 1:00 PM. Reason : .]

11/21/2010 12:58:02 PM

^ I get like that around Christmas time because it's the one time of year I get to see all of my Kansas family and I want everything to work out.

To combat that stress they put me in charge of running Secret Santa so I feel like I'm doing something useful

11/21/2010 1:25:10 PM

haha glad to know i'm not alone.

as long as i get to make some side dishes or something i think i'll be less stressed out. i just hate not being able to do anything because that is what i LIKE doing. i get stressed out doing nothing.

we are weirdos, misha

11/21/2010 2:03:53 PM

all thanksgiving related stress will be relieved Thursday night, around 10:00

11/21/2010 2:06:29 PM

I hate this time of year.

11/21/2010 2:12:37 PM

agreed. i used to love it, now it sucks and is all complicated. i just want to crawl in bed and ignore everything until mid january.

11/21/2010 2:14:48 PM

i still love it

because it is one constant. it always comes, there's always drama and family and food. i love food. i love seeing other people happy.

by all accounts i should loathe it, but somehow i still love it. i like to cook and entertain. i think i got that from my mom. and i like to make all of her recipes. it makes me feel happier. but sometimes frustrated when i don't understand a direction or the ingredient measurements are all vague. like "add salt" "make crust"

ok how do i make fucking crust?!?!? and how much saltttttt.

but i still enjoy it.

i actually don't like turkey that much though. at all. i like side dishes, though. LOVE side dishes.

[Edited on November 21, 2010 at 2:25 PM. Reason : .]

11/21/2010 2:24:35 PM

Now that it's been a bit and most know anyway

I missed the Lady Gaga concert bc I drank one too many rum and cokes in the parking lot and security wouldn't let me in

I was home and blackout drunk by 8.

Not my finest moment.

11/21/2010 2:28:31 PM

ohhhh noooooo

that is sad sad sad. the missing of the concert. not the blackout by 8. no judgments here

11/21/2010 2:30:33 PM

I self-loathed myself for three weeks b4 I told someone other than those that knew from that night. And anything anyone could say to me about it would not even some close to the damage I put myself through after.

I even drunk dialed my in-laws that night they laughed about it. Most have just felt bad bc those tix were a bday gift and knew I had been talking about it since the concert was announced for Raleigh.

I have never been that drunk. I was so excited (sooooooo excited) I just didn't keep it together like I usually do.

She'll be back. And I won't miss that one.

11/21/2010 2:36:28 PM

lolz. gg lk

11/21/2010 2:37:03 PM

I'm lucky I wasn't arrested honestly

I could've been in the slammer!

11/21/2010 2:37:59 PM

Similar thing happened to my friend at the Charlotte Show

We found her passed out under a Tahoe 3 blocks away

11/21/2010 2:45:58 PM

Quote :

" i'm sure everyone else in america loves to have their thanksgiving feast prepared for them while they sit back and relax. but i like to do the preparing because....i am a super duper control freak."

i have some control issues myself regarding the thanksgiving meal. not so much in regard to the turkey but with everything else. a family member said they would bring dressing but i'm making some also in case we (i) don't like it. that is probably going to be seen as a huge bitch move on my part, but, oh well.

11/21/2010 3:11:48 PM

lol i'd probably do the same thing

i have forfeited the turkey. now i feel the need to control every side dish and the dressing. and the dessert.

but i GUESS i'll just make the dressing, cobbler and one side dish so i don't seem like a psycho.

11/21/2010 3:14:30 PM

my dad usually makes the turkey & stuffing but since he broke his knee he's relinquished that responsibility. i had offered to do it but my sister said she would buy one from honeybaked so i just let that one go. i'm sure it will be good, and i like turkey but it's not my favorite part of the meal.

[Edited on November 21, 2010 at 3:26 PM. Reason : ]

11/21/2010 3:16:39 PM

i agree. side dishes and dressing are my fav parts. and honeybaked will be good, i've had theirs before.

i love side dishes. i feel as though i might go overboard this week making them.

11/21/2010 3:19:18 PM

i am eating pickles in bed

11/21/2010 3:36:08 PM

i am eating freeze dried bananas in bed

11/21/2010 3:40:31 PM

I want to get busy in the stacks at D.h.thrill.

11/21/2010 3:42:48 PM

^ holla.

11/21/2010 3:44:44 PM

^^ My one attempt to do that didn't end well

11/21/2010 5:52:34 PM

I fired someone today and I feel really bad about it :/

11/21/2010 5:59:32 PM

^ that bitch deserved it and you never have to worry about dealing with her again. At least that is what I'm assuming.


I ran into a tree limb and now it looks like I have been punched in the eye

11/21/2010 6:04:47 PM

I am currently in the bathtub. I think im supposed to be ready to go to dinner in 5

11/21/2010 7:57:45 PM

I haven't left the house at all today, and didn't get out of bed till 4pm. Today has been a completely lazy day. Hopefully I can get to sleep at a decent hour tonight too.

11/21/2010 9:08:13 PM

Everytime I see someone with NC state apparel on up here I wonder if they're on tdub

Saw a guy at my giant like 20 minutes ago

11/27/2010 1:12:29 PM

I can't dance.

11/27/2010 1:16:38 PM

I don't know where to have my birthday party since Jackpot was my go-to place.

11/27/2010 1:55:51 PM

I just balled after reading some of my blog's past entries. The reminders just aren't going to go away, I really hope the bottom stops falling out when certain ones come up.

11/28/2010 4:21:59 AM

beef jerky and the wire is a better place than i expected to be

11/28/2010 4:25:16 AM

^^Your newest post on ITST popped up and reading both had me crying all ove the place.

11/28/2010 8:59:22 AM

i knocked some old bitch up against the wall last night at the bar...

one more word and i would have beat her ass

11/28/2010 1:11:45 PM

ooh sorry i missed that

11/28/2010 1:12:53 PM

damn, the fun stuff happened the night i decided not to come

11/28/2010 1:13:15 PM

i was pissed...

real...real...pissed...


not just at her but she was the easiest target

11/28/2010 1:15:45 PM

what were you pissed about? confess to me.

11/28/2010 1:16:37 PM

I saw a camoflauge nc state cap the other day and HAD TO HAVE IT. I'm blending in with the AG sector

11/28/2010 1:19:05 PM

^^confession sent

11/28/2010 1:23:55 PM

man i'd love to see some Livinproof beatdown action on someone. its been years since i saw her all riled up lol

11/28/2010 1:25:12 PM

my family is getting crazier by the day and it's finally starting to weigh on me

11/28/2010 1:31:09 PM

i've never seen her get all riled up while drunk. she just gets real touchy feely and rubs your face in her boobs while she hugs you.

11/28/2010 1:34:27 PM

well you should have stuck around last night and you would have seen it...

i was about 6 seconds from beating her ass

11/28/2010 1:39:51 PM

i'm addicted to sushi...

the cravings won't stop!

11/28/2010 2:39:27 PM