i don't know why this is so hard, to start making healthier decisions. i don't know if the addiction is to the bad shit or to self-destruction itself. i'm obsessing about leaving it all just like i obsess about everything. i just feel like a moth to the flame. and i know that motherfucker will burn me down, but i keep going back and back and back and it gets worse and then i'm like, well fuck it, now it's really bad. i could stop, but where the fuck would that leave me. so i go back.

8/30/2009 3:30:35 AM

FML?

8/30/2009 3:36:28 AM

so what are you addicted to?

8/30/2009 3:46:48 AM

anything you can abuse.

8/30/2009 3:48:36 AM

women, kids, animals, minorities?

8/30/2009 3:50:21 AM

Don't admit too much on here son, cops and future cops be illin here son.

8/30/2009 7:08:31 AM

Horrorshow, are you in therapy? I would strongly advise you seek out some sort of counseling (can go to the counseling center if you're a student), or a therapist that specializes in addictive behavior. Quitting the thing you are addicted to won't help- you need to address the root cause of your addiction (personality type or behavior, triggered by stress or anxiety, etc.)

Please seek out help before you do something you'll regret- hurting yourself or someone else.

Also, have you ever been tested for obsessive compulsiveness or the like? This may explain
why you "obsess over everything", and may also explain the addictive behavior.

8/30/2009 10:18:02 AM

You may want to seek counseling or a support group.
If you can afford it, go to a substance abuse rehab center. My roommate checked himself into a program in tennessee for his cocaine addiction. Now he's in a halfway house and is doing great. Has a huge network of friends who have been through the same thing. For some, it's the only real way to survive it.

8/30/2009 10:24:07 AM

8/30/2009 12:41:07 PM

it's the human condition son. it's our nature

I do not understand my own actions. For I do not do what I want, but I do the very thing I hate. Now if I do what I do not want, I agree that the law is good. But in fact it is no longer I that do it, but sin that dwells within me. For I know that nothing good dwells within me, that is, in my flesh. I can will what is right, but I cannot do it. For I do not do the good I want, but the evil I do not want is what I do. -Romans 7:15-19

8/30/2009 6:58:54 PM

Read "A Million Little Pieces" by James Frey

It's a dramatized version of a true story. The author passed it off as though it really did go through all that, but Oprah snatched it down. But for the most part, it was a very good book about a man who had problems with addiction and how everyday was a severe fight to never going back.

8/30/2009 7:10:09 PM

read a million pieces when it first came out. great book.

i'm in AA and in therapy. but i get pissed off at everyone that tries to give me advice. i have a dissociative disorder. praying actually helps. i just wanted to share on here since i haven't been to a meeting in a few days.

8/31/2009 12:03:51 AM

Props for being proactive. Good luck

8/31/2009 3:36:55 AM

Ok then read the sequel, "My friend Leonard"

LOL Just kidding man.

Just don't go back.

8/31/2009 3:55:37 AM

God is the only way out. We both know that. You can try all the meetings/counseling/therapy. Whether you believe in Him or not, it will get you through it and its the only way out. You won't fix yourself until you find something to live for. The bible has all the answers.

8/31/2009 10:48:20 PM

I'm pretty well versed as far as the bible. I'm not sure where the bible talks about dealing with substance abuse.

8/31/2009 10:49:52 PM

if you're reading it as an abuser, it gives you options. but those options involving repentence and the release of control (cause you don't really have it)--that's the hard part.

i believed in an abusive god that was going to get me growing up. i didn't like church...didn't see it's use. didn't like it more when i saw that everybody else seemed to have it as some part in their life and i was so scared of it.

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9/4/2009 2:11:10 AM

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"God is the only way out. We both know that. You can try all the meetings/counseling/therapy. Whether you believe in Him or not, it will get you through it and its the only way out. You won't fix yourself until you find something to live for. The bible has all the answers."

OH EAT A DICK

9/4/2009 10:04:52 AM

RAWR CHRISTIANS

9/4/2009 10:42:22 AM

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"God is the only way out. We both know that. "

now that's fucking bullshit.

9/4/2009 10:44:06 AM

AA forces religion down your throat because they know you have an addictive personality and you'll probably latch on to religion very easily.

9/4/2009 10:45:12 AM

Oh, gotcha. Sounds about right.

9/4/2009 10:51:09 AM

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"AA forces religion down your throat because they know you have an addictive personality and you'll probably latch on to religion very easily"

QFT

I have quite an addictive personality but I'm doing better to turn to more positive things to get addicted too, however, too much addiction to anything is bad. My working out is a prime example. I just get too anxious and jittery if I don't get my workout for the day in. I used to be extremely addicted to video games, WoW especially. Managed to just shift my time spent in WoW to now dieting and exercise. Not necessarily leaving addiction behind, but rather, changing addictions. FML

9/4/2009 11:41:57 AM

I would call that a healthy addiction though... Although if it has an adverse psychological effect on you if life gets in the way of a workout I can see how that can be just as debilitating as an unhealthy addiction.

I don't, by nature, have an addictive personality, but I need to stop eating like crap...

9/4/2009 12:32:16 PM

i guess i'm gonna see if i can make it from now until i get off work without smoking. i doubt i will be able to though

9/4/2009 12:47:15 PM

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"AA forces religion down your throat because they know you have an addictive personality and you'll probably latch on to religion very easily"

This is grossly untrue. AA is absolutely spiritual and developed around the idea of a god, but AA does not seek to push religion and this is a misconception.

Almost everyone who has ever been to an AA meeting initially has a problem with the concept of a higher power and wrestles with the god question. It's inevitable when you have hit the bottom and are desperate to change, but afraid that you do not have the strength to do it yourself. But AA does not care who or what your "higher power" is. Many people consider the group itself to be their higher power, others love, reason, whatever you understand your higher power to be. I see the concept of the higher power to be there to get the alcoholic to combat selfishness and self absorption -- to look outside oneself. Because many people in AA are Christian, the group can take a 'religious' bend. But I have found that good groups to steer away from that.

If you have difficulty dealing with alcoholics who use God as their higher power, there are AA meetings specifically for Atheists and Agnostics.

9/4/2009 7:28:56 PM

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"God is the only way out. We both know that. You can try all the meetings/counseling/therapy. Whether you believe in Him or not, it will get you through it and its the only way out. You won't fix yourself until you find something to live for. The bible has all the answers."

Is this dude serious?

I think the entire "higher power"/spirituality thing is bullshit. You don't need that to overcome addiction. And, if you do, then you're just using it as a crutch. You should be able to find the strength you need through yourself or others.

9/5/2009 1:34:31 PM

WHERE IS YOUR GOD NOW??????

9/5/2009 1:38:10 PM

^^^are there any meetings specifically for ppl that are not agnostic, atheist, or christian? get so tired of religion now a days. even get tired of the ones that don't believe in it

9/5/2009 1:43:42 PM

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" You don't need that to overcome addiction. And, if you do, then you're just using it as a crutch. You should be able to find the strength you need through yourself or others."

Some people do need it, and there’s nothing wrong with crutches when your legs are broken.

9/5/2009 2:19:45 PM

no. i see what ur saying. i get really turned off at the god thing too. it also makes it worse when you see sick fucks full of bullshit talking about 'god' at a meeting. the place makes me want to drink more.

i was addicted to working out too. then i got hooked on adderral. then adderall and working out and schoolwork. then when college was over, i started drinking my ass off everyday.

9/8/2009 6:32:08 PM

HELP im addicted to schoolwork!


maybe you should go back to school and throw your passions into that.

9/9/2009 1:37:44 PM